One Year Ago

It has been one year since we lost our little Zachary. Part of me doesn't believe it's been a year and another part feels like it has been the longest year of my life. A day still doesn't go by that I don't replay in my mind being told - "your baby doesn't have a heart beat" and coming home looking at David and saying - "he's gone." I cherish those moments from his delivery and the hour we spent holding him - but I can't help but think what our baby - who would be 8 months now - would have been like - his little personality, who he would have looked like etc. But I am grateful to know that one day we will hold him and be with him again.